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But Here I am, Living In My 30’s
Being in my 30’s is interesting because I never thought I’ll make it too see age 30, let alone 33. This isn’t because of any chronic illness I have or any pain and not even my depression. I never thought I would make it because I didn’t believe I deserved to live and did a…
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My life with depression and anxiety with knowing what “it” was
Honestly, I’ve seen and heard the phrase “new year’s resolutions” enough to make my head hurt? I like to be more realistic every year. My concerns or worries don’t just disappear because it’s the new year. I’m scrolling g through posts. I’m scrolling through Google. Looking for something that says that what I’m feeling or…
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Depression is much more than sadness
When my depression bout happens, it feels like everything is grey & dull. Sometimes it feels painful because I want to cry all the time. It feels like I’m drowning except I’m seeing everyone around me breathing. It’s sometimes like the Dementors from Harry Potter have caught me & sucked all the life out of…
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“Apologies! Just Seeing This Message Now…”
I say “sorry” like I drink water or breathe air. I apologize for speaking up. Trust me, I am always been told to stop, even as a child — and even now, I’m unable to stop especially when I genuinely am. Forgive me, but it’s not the same as taking someone else’s apology because it’s…
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There Are Days I Feel — Snappy
I don’t know if it’s because of the chronic pain of Fibromyalgia, the symptoms of anxiety and depression or both. However, the feeling of being fatigued makes me the most angry because it’s the one thing I can’t manage. Whenever I did try to push myself, my symptoms get worse. I lay there sometimes memorizing…