There Are Days I Feel — Snappy

I don’t know if it’s because of the chronic pain of Fibromyalgia, the symptoms of anxiety and depression or both. However, the feeling of being fatigued makes me the most angry because it’s the one thing I can’t manage.

Whenever I did try to push myself, my symptoms get worse. I lay there sometimes memorizing every crack in the walls. Those around me do not understand. Saying things like “I’m exhausted all the time too”. It’s not the same thing.

Chronic fatigue syndrome is one of the most controversial conditions. Researchers, doctors and patients struggle to agree on its name, its definition or even whether it exists. But the prognosis is bad. An analysis in 2005 of trials that followed patients for up to five years concluded that the recovery rate is 5%.

Chronic fatigue syndrome is also known as myalgic encephalopathy or ME (although not everyone agrees that these are the same condition). There is no proven cause and there are no agreed diagnostic tests, but the condition is defined as six months or more of persistent fatigue that disrupts life and doesn’t get better with rest. It is accompanied by other symptoms including impaired memory or concentration, sore throat, tender lymph nodes, headaches and joint and muscle pain. In severe cases, people stay in bed for long periods.

With me, I stay in bed half of the day if I’m not work and I’m a pretty active person & healthy person as well. On my worse days, I am easily blame myself for not functioning or being “lazy”. it’s unpredictable and honestly beyond my control. I’ve learned to deal with it as I get older.

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