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The Paradox of My Anxiety
I’ve always struggled to find words to describe my diagnosis or to put into words a definition to my mental illness. Broken is one way I could easily describe who I am. People around me do not see it but the cracks are there and just below the surface. It’s clearly hidden by a smile…
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Days I Feel Like I had Enough
There are days. Sometimes many days. I feel angry 😠I feel unheardI feel unseen. It’s difficult and I’m trying to process all my thoughts at once. I love my fiancé. Which gives me a bigger sense of hope. However, empathy is what so many lack especially for others. I get it but when will I…
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Symptoms I get from Anxiety and Depression no one see at all
1. Hypnotic jerks – jerking awake as I fall asleep 2. Electric shock sensations through your head 3. Extreme wave of dizziness 4. Shooting pain 5. Numbness/tingling sensations throughout my body 6. A sudden wave of nausea 7. A disturbing intrusive thought(s) 8. A sudden intense muscle twitch/spasm 9. Ears ringing and ear pressure 10.…
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I’m Tired of Having to Explain my Mental Health and Chronic Pain to People
Most people have the general ideal what “physical pain” is or what “disabled” is and what it looks like. However, if it is not immediately obvious for others to see the it’s invisible or don’t exist. The real truth is that illnesses come in different shapes and forms and they aren’t always visible on the…
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Feeling happy and depressed at the same time
Happy or sad, excited or indifferent, anxious or calm life has shown me that emotions don’t always go by some neat categories. It is entirely possible, and entirely human, to feel happy and depressed at the same time. Living with depression isn’t a perpetual state of sadness. There are days filled with laughter, moments of…