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When It Feels like It’s Too Much
Days when it feels like it’s too much Days I do t want to get out of bed Put on clean clothes; breakfast Some kind of self care Rendering my state of fear Generally state of hopelessness So far deep inside I’ll isolate On those day During those weeks Enduring those months Fighting tooth and…
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I don’t say suffer for attention of pity
I use the word “suffer” not for pity or attention and have been told I’m dramatic and making it up. I’ve been a fighter no matter what I’ve been going through. I use suffer not only because chronic pain and unknown autoimmune disorder changed perspective on things but it keeps me from being and living…
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Chronically Apologizing
I’m no stranger to irritation. In fact, I might even go so far as to suggest that irritation is my baseline emotion. Between my depression, anxiety, and fibromyalgia , the world rubs me raw. So when I’m told – again – that my constant apologies are annoying, I understand exactly the feeling they’re coming from.…
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There’s a unique kind of loneliness that comes with having a mental illness
The loneliness doesn’t come from literally and physically alone, though we appreciate having “alone time”. However, there will always be long days alone with a flare up or if more severe, in the hospital by yourself. Then there’s the likelihood of frequent doctor appointments. There’s no one who can ever quite understand what it’s like…
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What is a Fibro flare up anyway?
I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia at 27. Managing this plays a big role in being able to live comfortably. This includes flare ups of every kind. Symptoms of Fibromyalgia vary over time and these are times when the pain will feel worse than ever and difficult to deal with. Symptoms includes digestive problems, swelling in…