Some people think that a lack of motivation is when you miss a gym session one week because you rather have a movie night instead. It may be for some people.
However, people with depression like me say we have no motivation…we really mean it.
I did have a job at one point but I was wrongfully terminated but I still have jobs to do. I have responsibilities around the house and for survival.
Most of my life, people have questioned me. No one really called me lazy but have gotten at me when I didn’t really want to do anything especially after being functional all day or the day before.
It’s the constant battle between anxiety and depression. The anxiety is gnawing at me, telling me I need to do things, and the depression is pulling me back and telling me to just sit and mope around instead.
Some people have trouble even getting out of bed, and it affects them in so many different ways. I know this because as I get older, it’s harder to get out of bed especially when I really want to.
But telling a person to “just exercise, you’ll feel better” or to “just get on with it the rest of us do” isn’t helping at all. It’s making us feel worse and giving us even less motivation.
We want to carry on with our lives. We want to be able to do jobs that other people don’t think twice about. It isn’t being lazy, not in the slightest.
I tell you this because I’m always the one on the go all the time. I’m told I’m too young to take an easy even though I’m in my mid 30’s.
Sometimes, we just don’t have the motivation for anything and that’s OK. It really is. It really should be. It’s part of the illness, a symptom that we can’t help.
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