Unapologetically black. Unapologetically unbothered. The word this is unapologetic. What does this mean anyway? It applies to me in so many aspects.
I’ve been a full time freelance designer since graduating college. I was around 22 years old. I went through all the phases of being a people pleaser. Of course, I tried to be what others wanted me to be. However, that’s not how it works. Instead, chase what you truly want in this life because you only have one. After going through suicidal ideations and self harm, I know I no longer want to be a lesser version of myself.
I hated feeling like I was a burden. I want and need to be the biggest and most passion person of myself and still be able to help others in my own introverted kind-of way.
I’m not apologizing for being myself anymore. I will look at you like you are insane. I sure as hell won’t apologize for being black with depression and fibromyalgia I won’t apologize for want to go the direction other will not go! In my case, being a graphic designer and artist.
My whole life people have told me “I’m never around”. Maybe it’s because I work to much or because I’m too much an introvert. Even when I went I get myself masters for graphic design. Many wondered “why”. I was always told I’m “book smart”. That’s what I was labeled as even now. However, no one saw the bigger picture. I not only have this dream of being a great designer but being 100% in control of my life. I love being able to help people while still having my own. I’m on that mission. As a woman of color, I work in the land of rejection. It doesn’t get easier but it’s temporary. I don’t accept no as the final answer.
So what is your word for the year. I would love to hear it.