I have be doing more research based on how I’m feeling week by week. I ask myself why I can not be normal? I also ask why doctors think a pain pill can solve most pain. I am the type of person who is quiet and reserved and because if this many think I’m rude and arrogant. I’m not. I’m just misunderstood. The fact that what I’m feeling has a name really puts me at ease especially for someone like me who always feel inadequate and resistance to others due to the fear of rejection. All this ties into what is called Avoidant Personality Disorder. Even though this is a fancy name, I do display symptoms of this disorder. I will disengage socially, take fewer risks, and perceive myself as inferior to others. I will get frustrated that I’m not good enough . This is just something I was able to live with because as long as I remained distant I wasn’t a burden to others.
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I put on some make-up and put a smile on my face. If anyone asks me, everything is ok . I'm Laughing because no one knows the joke is on me because I'm dying inside with my pride and the smile on my face. I am an artist who lives my by my own rules and define my own creativity. I explore the world through using my hands, leaving everything else to the imagination. Using graphite to illustrate whatever comes to mind. My art connects me between two worlds...my creativity and my heart. I find an escape in my art. This is where I find my voice...on a blank sheet of paper, a blank template on a computer, or objects I come across. I refuse to limit my artistic expression. View all posts by LunaNightingale