What it is like for me: Social Anxiety

I have always showed signs of social anxiety since I was real young. As a child, I was labeled shy, antisocial and sensitive. I had large gatherings especially at school or with other adults. I always felt uncomfortable being the center of attention. My body would always freeze for a few minutes whether it was to read aloud in school or presentations. No one ever knew even to this day. Even as an adult, I am able to do social tasks well but my body would become numb with nervousness and constantly on edge.

Talking with other people is another story. I am very talkative when I am talking with others that seems to listen. At the same time, I can easily walk past you and not say a word especially when I don’t know you. Too much social interaction drains me to the point of utter fatigue.

If people really understood before passing judgement, they would see that I’m always nervous of what people may say about me. I’m always wondering if someone is laughing at me. This is a everyday struggle. The anxiety is an everyday struggle. I do not suffer from panic attacks, however I will get pains in my stomach and throughout my nerves in my body. No can see it. No one will realize it. I smile like everything is okay. It is, however a struggle no one understands unless they are dealing with it.

NostalgiaCon (80’s) 2019

NostalgiaCon hosts another 80’s decade event from September 28th-29th in Anaheim, California at the Anaheim Convention center. Slipping into those leg warmers, watermelon lip balm, neon lights and pop a cassette tap into the boombox will bring back some memories.

Christopher Lloyd from back to the future, Corey Feldman and Sean Astin from The Goonies were among top featured talent. Not only were there guest but also retro gaming and on-theme and venders.

Did I mention the music from Madonna and Cyndi Lauper and Old School Hip Hop in the background as you experience the convention. Also with 1980’s icon the original MTV’s VJ Mark Goodman. By nightfall, it gets even better with a roster of artists whom performed this weekend: The Sugar Hill Gang, Dokken, Doug E. Fresh, TKA and Monie Love.

Flash Gordon played by Sam Jones

Flash Gordon played by Sam Jones

Original Glow girls!

The Original Glow Girls!

Mary Ann played by Dawn Wells from Giligan’s Island

Mary Ann played by Dawn Wells from Giligan’s Island

There was even a live band playing the 80’s classics, which was pure joy.

Cosplay was definitely recommended along with all things Ghostbusters and of course the DeLoreans.

What else could you not love about the 80’s decade than to just go down memory lane and enjoy it.

Nerd Expo 2019

Formally known as Nerdbot-Con, Nerd Expo being on its fourth year was held on September 21st at the Pasadena Convention Center. It was an amazing turn out and experience. Nerd Expo is the alternative to your average, expensive anime convention. This year there are more vendors, more music, more activities, more guests including the cast of the Invader Zim movie! Another guest is Peter Cullen, whom is the most well known voicing for the original Optimus Prime and Eeyore. He is one guest that does not do many appearances.

Invader Zim has been one of my favorite cartoons as a child. With the release of the movie, all the voice actors are gathered in one place. Richard Horvitz as Zim, Rikki Simons as Gir and Melissa Fahn as Gaz.

Now, the cosplayers make up a big portion of the Nerd Expo. The cosplayers, as usual, were all amazing.

The Nerd Expo was an amazing turnout just like all the other events hosted by Nerd-bot. See you in 2020.