Anxiety is like a bound rope | Depression is like a black hole

You wake up with the rope around your legs. Getting up feels like getting out of a tight alley space but you do it anyway. All of a sudden, the rope is strangling your legs. You beg. You plead. The rope gets tighter. Restless. It begins to break the skin. Maybe someone hears explaining you can not get unraveled.

“How hard can it be. It’s just a wrong. Your arms are free”

“I already tried”

Then I just don’t answer or ask again.

You wake up again. Now you feel planted but weak. Now you feel you are in a darkened hole tying you to the bed. You see the ceiling but you just lay there. Restless. Aggravated but unable to move.

“Get your lazy behind up”

You just lay there.

You spend all day wresting the rope and that darkened space. You have scars so you cover them up with your favorite jacket.

You wake up again. This time the rope is tighter. Still restless. That dark space is now dark matter suffocating you. You move through the day like The Great Boston Molasses Flood of 1919. You count your breathe to explain but it is no point.

You wake up and the rope makes it towards the torso squeezing the appetite out of you.

“You don’t have an appetite?”

“I’m not really hungry”, just don’t have the energy.

You wake up and somehow you look different. That blackened space turns grey and the rope comes undone. You have a smile today and every is calm. You feel okay today to leave that rope under the bed. Some days it will appear and other days you can jump up with no fear.

Harajuku Meet-Up #37

It is 2019 and I am still the same person. However, before I begin creating new j-fashion ideas, here is the last fashion style from the Harajuku meet-up on December 15, 2018.

Courtesy of Ivan Abuto
Courtesy of Ivan Abuto

Courtesy of Garland Tennell

Courtesy of thesteelshark

I am inspired by cyber fashion, cyber pop, & cyber goth. In this society, it’s called Rave fashion but I digress. If you look into today’s Japanese street fashion styles, there are patterns of plaid, silver, black, and even some neon colors.

Taste My Poison Hologram Shrug, TV Static Mock Neck Top which is underneath the Techno Goth Sheer Dress and Technosexxual Reflective Gloves

All by Club Exx Clothing purchased from Dolls Kill.

Flare pants are from Forever 21

Ultimate Artistry Pro Palette Make up by BH Cosmetics

Lip color by NYX Cosmetics

This year, there will be more Cyber fashion looks and more urban j-fashion styles.

Harajuku Day Meet-Up #36

Back at it again with another Harajuku inspired style from November 17th meet-up.

I have been looking at more previous styles from the 80’s and remember Cyndi Lauper and also remembered Fruits Magazine. My style is inspired by the 80’s punk-rock and some styles from Fruits Magazine.

Worst Is Near Vinyl Choker by Current Mood and boots by Demonia from Dolls Kill

BV/LK Bodycon checkered dress by Betty and Veronica

Black asymmetrical short-sleeves hoodie from ACDC Rag

Make up is all using NYX Cosmetics