Long Beach Comic Expo 2019

This year, Long Beach Comic Expo was held February 16th and 17th at the Long Beach Convention Center. Long Beach Comic Expo invades the city of Long Beach once again with its mission to celebrate comic books. This year it was all about the writers, exhibitors and publishers of comics.

This year’s convention featured a lot of “girl power”. Something I have always look forward to when women are the center of a comic series. One popular panel featured at this year’s convention was “Women On The Dark Side” hosted by comic book artist, fine artist, writer and director Susan Lee. The panel focused on women in the comic business.

Tokyo Pop was definitely the biggest attraction. I’ve been a fan of Tokyo Pop for a long time when they were founded in 1997 so I knew what to expect with all my favorite titles. Again, the main focus is comics. That is how it should be.

Of course, there is always cosplay. Everyone knows I always cosplay. For Saturday, I did Steampunk Riddler and for Sunday I did a Hogwarts student. It turned out to be a very decent convention.

Check out the phots from my other half on his website:

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OCD Is Not An Adjective

Little do people know is that I have OCD, which is an compulsive disorder. I have always hated the phrase “I’m so OCD” because most are not OCD. Recently, I did learn that people with OCD do not state they have OCD, including myself.

There are several subtypes of OCD. Some include checking, sensorimotor, relationship, contamination, just right, suicidal, scrupulously, existentialist, harm/responsibly. For me, it is checking. Every time I leave my place I always have a mental checklist I can not leave my place without and say it to myself: key, wallet, ID and phone. This is without fail. When I do leave I still think I forgot something. I even tend to go back and see if I forgot something.

Checking takes various forms such as checking for safety, understanding and mistakes. This could mean checking for locks, appliances, harming others/self, catastrophe, mistakes, body, etc. I check everything 2 times of more. Another example is if I tell someone to lock my door, I still go back hours later to see if the the door is look. I literally unlock the door, open the door, close the door, and lock it. I can’t go to sleep without me and only me locking my door.

These manifestation differ from person to person. For me, it is silent and no one really know except those whom truly have it. OCD is not about being near and cleaning so please do not say “I’m so OCD”.

Words Have An Affect on Mental Health

Remember when your parents or adults would remind you “sticks and stones may break your bones but words will never hurt you”? Mostly everyone has heard this or was told this. For some it is farther from the truth. Words are used as communication. Once something is said, you can not un-say-it. Ever since a child, I was teased and called every name from nerd, to ugly, to even pull phrases that diminished my self esteem and even bring me to tears. This was every other day. No one took me series then and when I explain my story, no one believes me now.

There are days I wake up literally thinking —

“What would happen if I literally harmed myself or attempted to kill myself, would anyone care?”

Until recently, I actually never knew why someone calling me a name would hurt my feelings until recently. I don’t like confrontation! It has so much to do with social anxiety. The worst part about sitting in class everyday is that everyone would laugh at me and call me names. The only thing the teachers would do is watch; maybe say “stop it” but no action what-so-ever.

Words hurts! Hurtful words spoken intentionally can wound deeply but so can words that are simply part of our vocabulary – words that aren’t meant to be hurtful but nevertheless cause others pain. You are told to “get over it”. I became more reserved and pass it off as just being shy when I was developing a mental illness of anxiety and depression.

Today, I am unable to respond to compliments. I will say “thank you” but I won’t believe someone when they compliment me even though it registers in my heart. It won’t register in my mind. Believe it or not, I am able to interact with people and function normally — on the outside. On the inside, I have several instructive thoughts and want to go in complete solitude.

When it comes to mental health, words matter. They matter when your are young why you are still developing and can be impactful when your are older. Words do hurt. The ridicule, distain, humiliation, taunting, all cause injury. Verbal abuse causes more than emotional trauma. It inflicts lasting physical effects on brain structure. Bullying is series and words are a form of communication. Please be mindful.